I read a thing again. I feel this is going to be a common theme…
I both love being alone and reading and binge watching Jaiden Animation videos (google it!) but then at the same time… I crave attention. I crave to be the best at something, have people listen to every syllable: have a voice.
As you can probably tell, I like humour. My humour is 98% of my personality with the last 2% being Being Human and Jaiden Animations. I want to use this humour. To have a voice that can make people laugh while talking about something interesting and engaging. My mind takes to YouTube… but that’s a shitstorm. Animation is fun but I can’t draw. Vlogging is a no no because my face is a no no. Some people do a podcast but they always seem too chatty and too long for consistent humour.
Soooooo, in this post I have tried to create more of a voice! A colloquial but chirpy mirage that is hiding the blank face that types this.
I just googled extroverted introvert and it sounds nothing like me!
Agh I am honestly hating this.
I want voice, not words on a page but there is no platform for me to express this without it having some kind of barrier.
Short story idea: my life
The fact it’s a short story is ironic because me.
Right, so it would be third person, #obvs.
It would have to stray away from all steryotypes. OOOOhHHH It could be really poetic like ‘Grief is the thing with feathers’. (awesome book)
It used loads of poetic devices that gave it an amazing voice.
Okay, a big part is that I like to pretend to be smart. Noticing insignificant things and tying them into a theme or idea.
I think I am going to re-read it. It was confusing and amazing. Agh, right now I feel very extroverted. I want to have someone sitting in front of me. OH SHIT
That’s an ideaaa, right, maybe a ghost story. YAS. Lost sister? Maybe, not daughter or lover, it’s too on the nose (another thing I hate, like blatant Jesus imagery in films).
I want it to be ironic.
For example, the ghost would never wear white or enter from a white glow because it doesn’t matter if you are living in a perfect place with God and all his #HolyHomies, it is how you perceive where you that makes it good or bad.
Two sisters. I don’t like naming characters. I think it… takes away from them. Because everyone views names differently. People know people with names, and the views of those people can get stuck onto the people.
I wish I could draw. I am imagining this so clearly right now and it is killing me. I feel this would make a much better feature film but I don’t have the actors, money or time to make one of them bad boys. YeS I think feature films are the bad boys of cinematography.
So, I think it should flip the dead person story on its head. The ghost is pining for the person rather than the other way round. Now I have to figure out why the person isn’t being all boo hoo about it. Maybe she’s logical. Like me? Understands there is no point crying over split milk! OOOOH ghosts are white, milk is white. #fun that doesn’t work but I can dream! ^_^
I want the film…
I just typed that
This a short story! But… I can imagine it so clearly as a film. Fuckity.
It want the story….. to finish in recognition, a look from the starting positon from the bed. AND it won’t start at a funeral like every other teen story, describing the rain and gravestones in too much detail.
BOOM, to show the persons indifference to her sisters death (man is feeling some twin vibes) she could, if she visits the grave, describe/list aspects of other graves but barely her sisters.
Maybe the other girl is on the spectrum. Would explain the lack of empathy. But I don’t want it to be a Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time type shenanigans.
Would it be bullshit if she didn’t mourn her sister because she could see her as a ghost and didn’t feel she lost anything?
I feel this, even though in third person, should be primarily from the ghosts perspective as is possibly the funnier character; chirping in and correcting her sister and making ironic comments. Maybe some direct address? But I don’t want it to be a comedy. Maybe some really dry humour to keep it interesting.
Mayybbeee I could go really basic and hae ghosty think her and her siter told eachother everything when actually persony was living her own personal life. LIVING being the proper word. With showing that how the ghost spenther time when alive wasn’t really living. MEANING THAT THE PURPOSE OF THE STORY IS THE EXPLAN THAT LIVING IS HAVING BLOOD CIRCULATING YOUR CELLS ITS HAVING SHITS AND GIGGLES WITH FRIENDS. EXPERIENCING SHIT AND DOING HEROIN!
less so the last part but hey ho